Dear Friends,

Rob has now recuperated from his incomplete surgery earlier this month. The next attempt at removing the kidney stone will be in May. Meanwhile I had a hearing test and asked the doctor if he knew of anything that would help a vocal tremor. I had read that sometimes botox injections were used and he confirmed that. When I got home, I googled that to find out how the injections are administered. They give a shot into the neck where the voice box is. Ugh! Still, I may get frustrated enough to let them try.

Other than that, I stay nervous these days. I feel a lot of pressure about Rob’s surgery, praying it will succeed this time. I know he is fearful about it, since the first attempt at running a wire/tube
into the correct place in his kidney failed.

I have hardly noticed spring, since I feel the pressure of staying organized.

I have said nothing spiritual in this note. I am too familiar with what I should say but don’t say and what I shouldn’t say and say anyway.

Scorpios tell it like it is and my Virgo ascendant renders me a perfectionist. But I am older now and everything does not happen on time anymore.

Ramana has said that effort is bondage and I am chained to my sense of duty. Things never work out as planned and I place awakening in that category.

I have spent the greater part of a lifetime delving deep into esoteric teachings. Some of them have stuck and many haven’t. It’s like throwing darts into a Peeps.

I ask myself what the most important thing in my day is and I wait for the answer, as it has not become clear yet. Perhaps it is to go easy on myself. The Bible doesn’t say “Go easy on thyself,” but maybe I will write my own scriptures. Giggle.

Vicki Woodyard