Today is a great day to make a personal declaration of independence. After all, I have one of a set of 2 new eyes, thanks to cataract surgery. Wouldn’t you know it, yesterday I ventured out for a walk without wearing the doctor-recommended sunglasses and a gnat flew into my operated eye. I stayed calm and came in the house and looked into the mirror. There it was, a black gnat. I got some artificial tears and put a few drops in and blinked. The gnat moved from left to right and then lower and finally I couldn’t see it anymore. Whew. No need for concern. I just need to put the sunglasses on when I go out.
Today I am asking myself what I need. The answers are quick and simple. I need to trust myself more and to show myself more mercy. I have read all the books and listened to all of the teachers. Whadyya know? The same wisdom from outside is also inside. The only problem is forgetfulness.
This is why I was fascinated by the teachings of Vernon Howard. He knew this; he lived it. And all he did for us was to yell at us to wake up! His teachings have taken deep root in my psyche. I no longer listen to his recordings or read his books. I simply don’t have to. I can now yell at myself to wake up.
Theo came into my life at the perfect time. He is a teacher with no teachings. For that I feel immense gratitude. Now I know I am also free of teachings. I am free to trust myself. I was always free to do it. I just didn’t accept my own perfect inner knowing.
If you are wondering what my own perfect inner knowing is, I would not venture to explain it to you. Why? Because nothing that can be explained is worth a sou.