Everything that happens is inevitable. We cannot remember that or fully accept it. Nevertheless, it is true.

We live from our subconscious motives and not from full consciousness. Hence the sins and downfalls inherent in this life.

We are also genetically programmed to perform in very specific ways. And the body, don’t get me started.

Why is it important to know this? I write about frailties we experience in our human lives. I should know what I report on. I studied with Vernon Howard and he taught us the painful truth that no one loves us but God. He left us to figure out that we are all God.

I live a life of solitude. It is not a life I choose but it is inevitable. Some good things are inevitable, too. Like grace and mercy and forgiveness. Just don’t think you will walk around embodying these states, though. They only come when the inevitable sinning has happened. Repentance brings us to our knees and suddenly we may know mercy for the first time.

Everything has a consequence and a price to pay for it. There are no free rides or free lunches. We live in constrained circumstances. Yet it is precisely in them that we learn to truly live.

Where is freedom if not within? Never search for it outside of yourself.

What if love is not up to you? What if mercy and grace are not up to you? They are not.

Embrace your ambiguities and lapse into your confusion. God knows far more than you do about your weaknesses. He is not outside of you waiting to come in. He got that part over with aeons ago. He is inside your fear and trembling. There are no secrets. Once you discover that, you will know that fact to be inevitable. Love wins every time.

Vicki Woodyard