I came to a realization today. I had just written a large check to have 2 trees in my yard cut down. It was not done for me, but for a neighbor warning me of legal action if I did not take them down. She was pleasant but firm; the trees were dead and if they fell, it might harm her property.
After the tree men left, I realized that they had not cleaned up the yard very well. So off I went, pulling vines, picking up dead limbs, etc. I worked up a sweat and my heart rate was elevated. (This is good exercise, I thought.)
I enlisted Rob to help me when I got too tired to go any further. He cheerfully went out and worked 3 times as hard as I did. He removed vines from trees, a task that really needed doing in order to save the trees.
I had put a cut of meat in the crockpot earlier in the day and found myself eating at 3:30. The meat was flavorless, but the potatoes and sautéed spinach were wonderful. No complaints from me yet!
Earlier in the day, I had heard something hit the window and looked to see if a bird was on the deck. No, nothing there. But in the evening, I went outside and saw a dead bird under one of our front windows. It was brown, with a white breast speckled with brown. I didn’t know what kind it was. Just knew it was dead and there was nothing left to do but dispose of it. I went in the house and found a cardboard carton. Took it outside and put the bird into it and the carton into the trash. I was still balanced and aware.
This, you see, was a day that could have depressed me and it didn’t. It just didn’t. My realization is sinking in. I am capable of more than I can possibly know until I try. Staying positive is huge. Gratitude for change. Gratitude for acceptance. Gratitude equals grace.